This vacation has been everything I needed. Laurie is a pleasure except that she is still obsessed with who I used to be. I just want a normal life, to be able to fail, to not have to be smart anymore. She won’t allow that right now, she still wants me in jail.

"So have you ever gotten close to Gamma."

"My mom apparently got close but that didn’t last long."

"Well are you hungry, I am."

"Yeah let’s get dressed and we’ll go to IHOP."

We go have breakfast and notice there’s a park across the street. We hang out there and watch the clouds go by. I end up holding her barely able to clasp my arms together. She rolls on top of me and I ignore that I can’t breathe very well. Just roll on top of her and bite her neck making her giggle.

"Its hot as fuck do you want to go back?"

"Nah let’s go see a movie."

We go see a movie instead. We go back to the motel.

"Hey, Laurie."

She keeps walking away, "hold on I’m in the bathroom."

"Excuses. excuses." I get an idea just for fun. I start clicking my cheek repeatedly very loudly together like I’m eating.

"David, what are you eating?" I’m silent for a split second as I go to my bag and get out a bag of chocolate kisses. I continue again but louder and faster. "David! You just ate! David!" I hear a flush. "David! Why aren’t you sharing?" I put some in my pocket and put the rest of the bag under the bed before she reveals herself.

I smile, "hi Laurie" I duck under the chair I’m near put my hand to my mouth and begin my fake chewing.

She vaults the bed! "Chew with your mouth shut! What are you even eating?"

I scurry past her and low crawl under the bed. She peeks under it and I throw a chocolate kiss behind me at her "what the hell dave!" I come back out the other end when I leap up she jumps on the bed. I go between her legs and vault the 2nd bed. I throw another chocolate at her "STOP THROWING SHIT!"

I get behind the bed "what do I get if I get one in your cleavage?"

"A concussion!"

I toss one and it lands right in there. She rushes me, I leap on the bed where she comes to me and tries to swing on her way up. I punch her elbow making her punch miss me then before she knows what happens I kick her knee in so she collapses to the bed I make sure she lands on the pillow.

I unwrap a kiss and I get down on top of her and feed her one. "There now I’m sharing."

She chews the chocolate for a little while. "What are you stopping for? Choke me you little bitch." I oblige with a smile and she starts taking her pants off. We get done having sex again. "So what did you want to show me?"

"You showed me pictures of Gamma the only grainy picture you have. Him in a black hoodie and a mask."

"Yeah, I know the pic."

"I bought a mask just like it. I wanted to play the mysterious stranger when we go to the bar. See if you were interested at least."

"Oh yeah that’s right, we still gotta do karaoke."

"Well with it being this kind of roleplay you know that I’m going to for shits and grins call myself gamma for the queue."

"I don’t know how I feel about that."

"I wasn’t asking. He’s the only man that you want more than me."

We start getting ready for going to the bar I use her jeep to go to Wal-Mart to buy a nicer button down shirt because she wants me to look nice. Dress pants, belt, tie and button down shirt blue black and gray and dress shoes I decide against the sunglasses: reminds me of that really nice suit I used to have.

Wearing it I feel confident, I don’t want to go back. I reluctantly keep my old clothes but I wear the new ones out. I get back to the motel and she is sleeping I decide its best not to wake her while wearing this and the mask.

I shake her just a little bit and whisper with a kiss on her cheek, "when should I wake you?"

"Come to bed, I set six alarms on my phone."

I remove my clothes except for boxers and join her. I fall asleep but wake up, I check her phone for the time, it says that there’s an alarm in two minutes. I take the chocolate from under the bed and bite some pieces into thirds and take two-thirds for myself and put the others in her mouth lodging it in her cheeks.

I sit up next to her and wait for her to wake up. She smiles as she rolls to me and I slyly ask her "did you have sweet dreams?"

"You are awesome you know that?"

"Nope, I’m just your average everyday David."

"Like hell you are, would you call me an average girl if I woke you up with a blowjob."

"You already did that."

"And you fed me chocolate while I was asleep. Both are welcomed wake ups."

"Well let’s get ready."

We get ready I’m done way before her I just watch tv while she is doing everything after I’m sharply dressed.

We go to the bar while we are at the table waiting for food I sign me up for a song later in the night. The time passes quickly before I know it the host, "alright this guy, I think it is a guy, wants to be called ’Gamma’ at seat B21. C’mon give him a cheer." I get up there, any reason you are mysterious like that no name, a mask what’s up with that."

"One person knows why and that’s the only one that needs to know."

"Alrighty then, Jimmy, give him his music!"

I clear my voice away from the Mic as the music appears on the screen in front and in back of me for "Friends in Low Places" by Garth Brooks

"Blame it all on my roots 
I showed up in boots 
And ruined your black tie affair 
The last one to know 
The last one to show 
I was the last one 
You thought you’d see there 
And I saw the surprise 
And the fear in his eyes 
When I took his glass of champagne 
And I toasted you 
Said, honey, we may be through 
But you’ll never hear me complain"

I watch as more women have their eyes on me as they continue talking to each other, I watch one start to ignore the guy hitting on her and smile.

"’Cause I’ve got friends in low places 
Where the whiskey drowns 
And the beer chases my blues away 
And I’ll be okay 
I’m not big on social graces 
Think I’ll slip on down to the oasis 
Oh, I’ve got friends in low places

Well, I guess I was wrong 
I just don’t belong 
But then, I’ve been there before 
Everything’s all right 
I’ll just say goodnight 
And I’ll show myself to the door 
Hey, I didn’t mean 
To cause a big scene 
Just give me an hour and then 
Well, I’ll be as high 
As that ivory tower 
That you’re livin’ in"

I watch as the women and some men stop talking to each other. And focus on me, people start putting their phones away.

"’Cause I’ve got friends in low places 
Where the whiskey drowns 
And the beer chases my blues away 
And I’ll be okay 
I’m not big on social graces 
Think I’ll slip on down to the oasis 
Oh, I’ve got friends in low places

I guess I was wrong 
I just don’t belong 
But then, I’ve been there before 
And everything is alright 
I’ll just say goodnight 
And I’ll show myself to the door 
I didn’t mean to cause a big scene 
Just wait ’til I finish this glass 
Then sweet little lady 
I’ll head back to the bar 
And you can kiss my ass"

I get a standing ovation from the women even the men are clapping for me.

I start to walk off the stage trying to hand the Mic to the host. She takes me by the shoulder. "Oh hell no. Mr. Gamma I wouldn’t be doing my job if I didn’t ask about that."

I get on stage with her, "I’ve had this voice since I was 13 and while biking to school every day I would sing it gave me very good lung capacity."

"You are amazing. Sent shivers up my spine I love your voice. If you have a girlfriend she is very lucky to have that voice for getting sung to. I know I would not let you stop."

"This is her first time hearing me sing."

"You are amazing. Just amazing. Thank you for sharing. Alright, can I get Brian A10, please? Brian at A10."

I walk off stage to Laurie glowing. "I recorded your voice."

"Why?"

She blushes, "I have my reasons"

"Sure you do."

I put my attention back on stage and the guy says "hey girl get back up here." She gets back up on stage, "I can’t do it."

"Are you just too shy?"

"No! Oh god no, I love this place. Gamma. I can’t follow up Gamma, can I give my turn to him?"

"Up to him really."

The spotlight crawls over to me. Its bright then I start walking to the stage.

Brian gives me a hug, "you are awesome will you take my turn?"

"I guess."

Another guy comes on stage, "sorry for crowding the stage honey I wanted to see if Gamma wanted to use a guitar."

The woman says, "I’ll hold the guitar too many people here please sit down sir."

He holds my hand while still on stage, "please tell me you are what wet dreams are made of. Do you also play the guitar?"

"I know two songs and only two songs."

"Woman goes, well are you willing to show us as your encore?"

"Let’s start with ’look at me’ by Alan Jackson and if I feel like it afterward ’Then’ by Brad Paisley."

The host says with glee, "this is going to be great. Does Jessica B05 care he’s taking your turn as well?"

Random girl from the crowd, "she’s in the bathroom with Bridget she won’t mind."

"You ready Gamma?"

"Whenever he’s ready with the music I’ll start as well."

Shortly after it starts as I start strumming and I catch up with the words and the guitar.

"I would bet my life like I bet my heart
That you were the one baby
I’ve never been so sure of anything before
It’s driving my heart crazy, I can’t hold out
I can’t hold back now like I’ve done before

Darlin’ look at me, I’ve fallen like a fool for you
And darlin’ can’t you see I’d do anything you want me to?
I tell myself I’m in too deep
Then I fall a little farther every time you look at me"

I notice drinks on my table piling up and Lauri sitting with her arms crossed at other women when they try to talk to her. She starts taking sips of many drinks.

"How do you do that girl?
Make me feel like I’m the only man alive for you
I guess that’s what it is that makes me fall like this
The first time in your arms I knew
The way you held me, it overwhelmed me
I went out of my mind"

She chugs a few drinks and other women sit with her and all their attention is on me as waiters bring portable tables with more drinks.

"Darlin’ look at me, I’ve fallen like a fool for you
And darlin’ can’t you see I’d do anything you want me to?
I tell myself I’m in too deep
Then I fall a little farther every time you look at me

Every time baby
Every time you look at me"

A woman throws her panties on stage and so does another. The host throws her bra on stage. The wait staff begins slowing down to pay attention to me.

I give a thumbs up to the guy controlling the music he gives me a thumbs up in return. The music to the next song begins and I strum along.

"I remember, trying not to stare, the night that I first met you
You had me mesmerized
And three weeks later, in the front porch light
Taking forty-five minutes to kiss goodnight
I hadn’t told you yet
But I thought I loved you then"

I walk into the crowd with the Mic and a spotlight follows as I touch tables as I sing to different women intensely staring in their eyes. I watch as women fall in love or lust.

"And now you’re my whole life
Now you’re my whole world
I just can’t believe the way I feel about you, girl
Like a river meets the sea,
Stronger than it’s ever been.
We’ve come so far since that day
And I thought I loved you then

And I remember, taking you back to right where I first met you,
You were so surprised
There were people around, but I didn’t care
I got down on one knee right there and once again,
I thought I loved you then"

Women and some men are smitten with me as I make my way to Laurie and her group of new friends.

"But now you’re my whole life
Now you’re my whole world
I just can’t believe, the way I feel about you, girl
Like a river meets the sea,
Stronger than it’s ever been.
We’ve come so far since that day
And I thought I loved you then

And I can just see you, with a baby on the way
And I can just see you when your hair is turning gray
What I can’t see is how I’m ever gonna love you more
But I’ve said that before

And now you’re my whole life
Now you’re my whole world
I just can’t believe the way I feel about you, girl
We’ll look back someday, at this moment that we’re in
And I’ll look at you and say
And I thought I loved you then"

I get closer and closer the women around Laurie are starting to throw things at me. Laurie is getting angry but I ignore all of them.

"And I thought I loved you then."

I kiss Laurie deeply on the lips and I can tell she is completely mine. She practically melts in her seat giggly awkwardly and snorts while blushing. All eyes are on us when people realize the last two songs were for her.

The host taps me on the shoulder, "please go to the stage." I walk with her and she starts trying to hold my hand and I’m avoiding her at all costs to not make Laurie more jealous than she already is.

I get on stage and the man who I got the guitar from is already there, "wow. She is so lucky."

"She has no idea."

"Spin for me." I do. "If she doesn’t I will."

I can’t help but smirk. A security guard taps me on the shoulder. I lean down to his level. "Your girl just sprinted to the bathroom. I sent my female guard after her to make sure she’s not assaulted and to hold her hair."

"I guess I’ll take her home. Thank you. How do I pay the bill by the way?"

"Oh please, with how many drinks came for you, fucking 84 drink orders in 7 minutes, your meal was in the house."

"Can you get your coworker to get her outside?"

"You have been speaking into my Mic without knowing."

I hear back from his shoulder, I will do that Gamma I think she’s almost empty."

I start walking off stage I’m stopped by the host and the security guard says to her, "not this time Alex."

I wait outside for seconds and Laurie stumbles out, "my dad lives blocks from here, we can walk."

We walk back to his house and I make it very clear that before I kiss her I want her to brush her teeth. She goes into the bathroom and I just wait for her while getting ready for bed.

"David?"

"Yes?"

"David?"

"Yes?"

"David?"

"Yes?"

"David!"

I go in there, "why aren’t you answering me?"

"I was."

"Come here." I get close to her and she tackles me with a kiss that knocks me over and in the shower. I grab around trying not to fall over and the cold water gets turned on. "Well, we are already here." She begins stripping and I follow suit.

We wait for the shower to warm up already playing with each other. We step in and we have an almost ritualistic bathing we lather each other with soap and I do my hair and lather up hers with shampoo massaging her best I can. After which I enjoy the taste of your kiss, the warmth of your breath. I love your kisses more and more as you start to involuntarily hold tighter cuddling with your strength trying to keep me close to you.

I begin caressing you with my tongue when we get to the bed. Rediscover every single fragrance and involuntary flex of your body as I explore and tease with no regard. Then I repeat the same path with kisses starting with the back of your neck, my hands flowing through your hair. Around your breasts and nipping your nipples then I continue my journey south.

You drag both of us out and put towels down on the bed. But without skipping a beat. I go past your waist kissing your vagina with some tongue before nibbling your clit. Then starting to go away from your vagina towards your inner thigh, you grab my head and with a slur bring me back up "if you’re going to do it, do it right"

I turn you to the most spoiled woman: kissed, licked and bit. Not only because I love you it is also because you are beautiful and elegant. When we make love, you make the most irresistible sounds and squirms.

Penetrating you with my eyes shut, I feel your eyes close as we kiss. Pulling your hair you let out an involuntary moan and I can feel your orgasm strengthen and flexing faster and more often. Sweat falls down as you shutter and moan as I continue, you know I’m just getting started.

When I finally finish inside you are exhausted out of breath and happy. I join you in bed only for you to rest your head on my shoulder you try to kiss me goodnight instead falling asleep in my arms. I kiss your forehead in return and start to get up. You say alarmed "where are you going?"

"Turn off the shower and get a sandwich."

"You earned it. Promise you will come back to me."

"I promise I will come back to you."

She passes out with a big smile on her face. I put on boxers and shorts start removing my finger prints from things I’ve touched. I go to the kitchen I’m on the phone with Jessica.

"Hey, I need to rent a car to get out of here."

"Why the fuck are you calling me at 6 am asshole!?"

"I gotta disappear from here."

"I thought you were on vacation."

"She’s not ready for Gamma. That’s a big part of me."

"Not what you thought?"

"Worse exactly what I thought."

"Do you need a job to disappear?"

"No just a car that isn’t the Prius. You will need someone to steal the Prius though."

"How much are you short by?"

"Hold on I hear something."

I see a silhouette of a man coming around with a gun and he is moving fast. "Get on the ground! Hands behind your head!" I get on the ground knees first interface my fingers over my head he turns on a light, "I have 10 rounds and I believe in double tap so you have one shot who are you? What are you doing in my house?"

"Hello, Mr. Flynn. My name is David Fitch. Your daughter and I went to the karaoke bar where I serenaded her. And then she got sick and she decided to come here to sleep it off I woke up early I was going to make her breakfast in bed."

"I told Laurie to bring you by last week so this kind of thing didn’t happen. Get off the ground, you’re a guest in my home." I get up slowly. "Hey there are still people sleeping so I’m going to ask that you take your phone call outside and I’m running late for work because of not setting my alarm properly last night, beyond that she loves blueberry pancakes I’ll get the ingredients on the counter for you please put things in the dishwasher when you are done."

"Yes, sir I will just be outside until you leave."

"Perfect."

I get outside "was that her father?"

"Yes, it was."

"You can’t destroy her like this!"

"I promised her I’ll be back. I didn’t tell her when."

"You’re a dick."

"No, I’m wise, she is not ready."

"How much did you need?"

"Roughly 500. The hotels here were expensive. It blew my budget."

"Yeah, the economy sucks."

"Can it be ready in two hours?"

"Yes, absolutely it’s a good thing you are a few hours behind Wal-Mart don’t open for another hour."

"Well, I got some stuff to do here."

"It will be done no problem. You are still an asshole for getting her to fall in love and not catching her."

"She’s not ready for the truth." There’s a pause "don’t give me that look she’s not ready and it kills me to have to say that."

"Whatever gamma. You getting out after this?"

"Probably."

"That will make it easier for you to date my little sister. But if you break her heart like you are going to break Lauries I will fucking destroy you myself!"

"I just want a normal life, wife, and kids with a normal life normal job without hiding, paranoia and special rules."

"Fine but do what you need to quickly. The whiplash effect from this will be epic and it will begin when she wakes up when she realizes you are gone."

I hang up abruptly when Mr. Flynn steps out with a large plastic lunchbox, hard hat, and a reflective vest. "I’m sorry for having you at gunpoint."

"Its okay you didn’t know me. And you gave me the chance to identify myself."

"Step inside and I’ll lock the door."

I step in "have a good day sir."

I start making pancakes for Laurie and I clean up and remove all evidence I was there to include taking a backpack and clearing out her office of everything relating to Gamma and my business.

In her room on her nightstand, I leave pancakes two glasses of orange juice and a handwritten note from me folded in the shape of a heart. I also take the rubber gloves with me as I leave.

"I promised you I would come back to you, didn’t tell you when. Years ago I told you that you would call me daddy, that was a metaphor of course.

Yes, you slept with your sworn enemy of the last four years. Not just once but over and over. And I have this to say about it. Whenever you want me, I’ll be with you in spirit I still wish for what’s best for you. On nights that you are lonely I’ll be next to you, under the covers, glued to your soft body caressing you slowly or wishing I could. I’ll be willing to satisfy your most secret wishes and anything I read in those eyes. You can hide nothing as I read them, completely exposed as you try to hide everything and failed.

This is my reveal to you, not a written confession. Next time I reveal myself to you it will be with my real name, no hiding anything it will be when I think you are ready for the truth, this was a test of the waters and your repeated attempts to get me to give you new thoughts on your research, told me you are not ready.

Below is my real name, if you can figure it out you can do what you want with it. But keep in mind, Krystal is no longer going to be of help. And I’m taking your office with me as my own version of a nuclear option.

Love: 6 4 12
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Ps: I really do love you. You’re just not ready yet to Love a good portion of who I am. I’ll be back.

I leave that there and walk out of the house. Get on the phone and call an old buddy of mine as I am waiting for a cab at the nearest gas station I make sure I still have the gloves I’ll throw them away in another state. "Hey, I need to use one of my military favors."

"Name it."

Next Chapter: Chapter 22: July 26, 2009