Rebecca Allen
Unmasked
June 10, 2020
I saw him in the hallway again. He had on a grey mask today and I felt like this was very distinguished. We were both coming home from somewhere and he nodded at me. His eyes were a little crinkled like he was smiling I think which means he was smiling at me! I hope so. I did this little wave thing which I thought looked chill but now that I’m thinking about it it probably made me look weird. What if he’s thinking I’m weird for waving? Why did I do that????? Ahhhhhhhhhh I hate this. I texted my sister and she told me I need to stop freaking out about the hot guy in my building and just talk to him but aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh NOOOO!!!!!!
June 15, 2020
Ok super super super cool thing today!!! I was in the communal kitchen making a thing of mac and cheese and *the guy* came downstairs too!!! That hasn’t happened before. He’s only a couple doors down from me which is great for waving like an idiot at him but I haven’t seen him up close. He’s like 5’7’’ish I think, and with this really pretty dark hair and kind of bigger. I couldn’t really see his eyes but I’m assuming they’re also pretty, and he was wearing a green mask. He said “hey” and I said “hey” (I didn’t wave like last time, seemed like the right decision).
So it’s quiet, and then he pulls out a box of the SAME MAC AND CHEESE. I felt like the gods were telling me to go for it so I pointed it out and was like “you have good taste” and he was like “nice food pun” and laughed. It was awesome, and what’s even more awesome is I didn’t even think of that as a pun so now he thinks I’m the kind of person who makes puns and that’s great!!!!
Anyway I took a chance and introduced myself. He said his name was Cerdo and that he had seen me around and we just talked about dumb stuff like the building and the city for like 10 minutes while I finished cooking! And then when it was done I (LIKE A VERY COOL CHILL PERSON) said it was great talking to him and I’ll see him around, and then I took my stuff and went back to my room! Now I’m eating my food and I know that a couple doors down he’s eating the same food and that’s awesome!!! I really like the name Cerdo too I think it’s cool. :)
June 18, 2020
OK NEWS NEWS NEWS OK SO I was maybe a little creepy today- I was about to go to the grocery store and as I was leaving, I saw Cerdo at the end of the hall in the laundry room. So I may have gone back into my room and grabbed my laundry (I mean I had been putting it off so it’s not like I didn’t have to do it. So if anyone steals my journal and reads this I’m not crazy, just...opportunistic? :) ) and I went to the laundry room and acted Very Chill and was all “oh hey man, nice to see you!” and we started talking and then WE TALKED FOR THE WHOLE TIME OUR LAUNDRY WAS RUNNING! I was super lucky because he had just put his in, but that means we talked for like an hour and a half!
He’s super interesting and funny. Also he snorts when he laughs, and when he did he apologized and went “Sorry, I’m a pig”, which I thought was really cute and we kept joking around about that and a ton of other things. He’s like a year olderish I think- I didn’t directly ask, but we’re both in a grad program! He’s studying agricultural science, which I know absolutely nothing about and it was super interesting. He’s really passionate about the environment and I loved that.
ANYWAY BEST PART: he asked for my number!!!! He said we should hang out sometime if I felt comfortable. There’s a TV room in the building so we could just keep masks on and socially distance, so I think that’s totally fine. We were both saying how we don’t really know anyone in the city anyway- he said his parents are on a small farm (I think he meant they own it?) outside the city, so it’s not like we’re around anyone. So if we get a little closer I think that would be ok. :) !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
June 20, 2020
OH MY GOD HE TEXTED ME TELL EVERYONE except not because you’re my journal. Lol. We’re planning to watch something tonight!!! I can’t wait I’m so nervous, write more later. :) :) :)
June 21, 2020
Well I don’t really know what to write so I’ll just say what happened.
Cerdo and I were watching a movie and having a really nice time. We had masks on and were on opposite sides of a big couch, but we started flirting and getting closer. And then he said “it’s a bummer these masks are in the way” and I said “they don’t have to be” and I took mine off.
He took his off and he had a pig nose. Like seriously the fucking snout of a pig. I screamed and he asked what was wrong and I said you have a pig nose and looked at me like I WAS CRAZY EVEN THOUGH HE LITERALLY HAD A PIG NOSE. And then he said that was like “I told you I was a pig, why are you freaking out?” and I said I thought he was kidding and he said I was shallow and close-minded, and then he stormed out.
I’m shaking while I’m writing this, I cried all last night. And now I’m thinking what if he’s right? Am I shallow? What do I do? I feel bad. :(