All too soon the evening was drawing to a close and Jake found himself driving to his apartment. 

     “We’re going back to your place?”

     “Umm, yeah, I was on autopilot.  We can go to your place instead?”

      She shook her head.  “No, it’s fine.”

Once they got to his place they settled on the couch and watched a TV show for the next hour. 

    “I think it’s time I take you back home.  You need your rest,” he said as he took her hands into his.  Then he cupped her face and drew her right next to him.  “Can I kiss you now Gloria?” 

     She nodded. 

     He reached over and pressed his lips into hers and gave her a gentle kiss.  He wanted more.  He wanted to taste her.  He gently pressed further into her and gave her a passionate kiss that made his heart skip beats.  She tasted so sweet!  He wanted to have all of her.

  Jake continued kissing Gloria and tasting her mouth.  He laid her down on the couch as he continued to kiss and caress her.  He ran his hands through her hair and kissed her neck and shoulders.  She gave out a soft moan.  He ran his hands along her sides.  He wanted to feel her body against his and kissed her passionately over and over again.  How he wanted to touch her all over her body!  Jake knew that he should probably slow down but he couldn’t help himself.  His desire for her was too strong.  He reached down and squeezed her breasts.  She gave out soft moan.  Without thinking, he reached behind her and unzipped her dress.  He thought that if he would just undress her from the top, it would satisfy his desire.  Ever so slowly, he pulled her dress down until it was to her waist.  He squeezed and massaged her breasts but he still wanted more.  It wasn’t enough to caress her breasts.  He wanted more; wanted to feel her skin and kiss her breasts.  He slowly worked his way under her bra and caressed her bare breasts as he gingerly unhooked it and took it off.  

Gloria gasped as Jake slipped off her bra.  She’d been so caught up in his kiss that she hadn’t even felt it when he unhooked it.  She looked down at her bare breasts and shuddered.  This was her first time doing this.  Should she tell him to stop?  But it felt so good!  She did really want to do this.  When his mouth enveloped her breasts, she moaned and rolled her eyes back in pleasure.  God, it felt so good!

He played with her nipples for a bit with his fingers until they were hard.  He couldn’t keep himself from kissing them.  They were so soft and delicate.  But he still wanted more.  Instead of being satisfied, he craved her even more with every touch.   He wanted to be skin to skin next to her, touch her beautiful body and kiss it all over.  He knew he wouldn’t be satisfied until she was his.  He wanted to claim her, to make her his forever.

Gloria kept moaning as Jake kept kissing and playing with her breasts.  She moaned louder with every kiss and caress.  She couldn’t believe how good his touch felt.  She had never done anything like this before.  Every touch and caress was knew and electric.  It made her whole body tingle and gave her a strong sensation down in her core.  She wanted Jake to keep kissing and touching her.  With every touch her need grew; her need to be touched and claimed by him in every way possible.  She wanted him inside her.  She wanted him to ravage and possess her.

As if reading her thoughts Jake got up and scooped her up in his arms and carried her to her bed and laid her down.   He pulled the rest of her clothes all the way off and laid on top of her careful not to hurt her injured ankle.  He began to kiss her passionately all over her body.

Gloria was in seventh heaven.  The more he kissed her and touched her body the more she realized that she needed to be honest with Jake and tell him it was her first time.  She wasn’t sure if he would be okay with it.

“Jake,” he heard Gloria say between breaths.

“Yes, baby?” he asked without stopping.

“I’m not sure we should go any further,” he heard her say.

“Why not baby?” He asked looking into her eyes.

“I don’t know if I’m ready to do this right now,” she said hesitantly.

Jake stopped kissing her and looked deeply into her eyes.  “What do you mean?”

“I’ve never done this before,” Gloria said quietly.  “This is my first time doing any of this.”  Even though they had talked about so many things, they had never talked about sex outright.

Jake couldn’t believe what he was hearing.  “You mean this is your first time ever?”

“This is my first time doing any of this.  I’ve kissed guys before but I’ve never let any of them touch me.  I’ve never been touched like this by anyone.  You’re the first Jake,” she said softly.

“But you’re 22 years old,” Jake blurted out.  Wow!  I never expected you to be a virgin!”  All the girls he had been with had lost their virginity in high school or younger.  He had never expected Gloria to be a virgin or any girl he met for that matter.  It was inconceivable to him.  Most girls he knew couldn’t wait to get rid of their virginity as if it was some huge burden or something.  He was still laying on top of Gloria, running his hands through her hair when he noticed she had tears in her eyes.

“Baby, what’s wrong?”

“I feel so dumb.  I should’ve known you wouldn’t want to be with a virgin.  What guy does?”  She began to cry.

Jake was confused.  Did she think he was upset over it or that he was rejecting her?  Because the complete opposite was true for him.  He couldn’t believe how lucky he was.  He was going to be the first one!  He was already the first one!  She hadn’t even been touched intimately by anyone before him.  It was amazing!  He would want her no matter if she was a virgin or not.  Virginity had never mattered much to him.  He lost his in high school and never gave it a second thought.  He knew most women his age weren’t virgins nor did he expect them to be.  But knowing that Gloria was a virgin made it that much more special to him.  It made him feel that much more special.

“Baby, I love that I’m going to be the first man you get to know intimately.  I feel so privileged,” he said kissing her forehead.  It was rare to be with a virgin around his age.  Yeah, she was a few years younger than him but not by that much.  He never really thought how special it could be until now.

“You sounded shocked like you didn’t like it at all,” Gloria said.

Jake wiped the tears from her eyes and kissed her cheeks.  “Baby, I am shocked but in a good way.  I just didn’t expect it, that’s all.  If you want to we can continue or wait.  I know we didn’t talk about doing it, especially not tonight.  I probably should have taken it more slowly.  If I’d known you were a virgin I wouldn’t have proceeded the way I did.  I’m okay with waiting if that’s what you want,” he said tenderly.

“I’m not sure,” Gloria said.   “I love the way you make me feel, Jake.  I get lost in you.  But I’m afraid of the consequences of having sex right now.  I know it will hurt a little but it’s the not knowing that’s makes me so nervous and anxious.  I just don’t know what I should do to turn you on and to please you?  I’m also afraid of what it will be like after we do it.  Will you look at me differently somehow?  What if I mess up or something?”  Gloria said quietly.

“Baby, why would I look at you differently?”

“I don’t know,” Gloria said looking away.  “This is our first date.  We met not too long ago.  What if it doesn’t work out between us?  What if you break my heart?”

“Baby, this is not a onetime thing for me.  I care about you.  I would never do anything to intentionally hurt you,” he said kissing her tears away.  “I don’t know what the future may hold for us and I can’t promise you that we’ll be together forever, although I hope so.  I would be lying if I said I was certain of it because I just don’t know.  But I do hope that we end up together for a long time and maybe even get married and live a long life together,” he said.

“That’s just it,” Gloria said.  “You can’t promise me forever and neither can I.  This is a big decision for me and a big deal.  It’s life changing for me Jake.  If we do this, I’m going to get attached to you in a big way.  I’m going to love you Jake.  I think I already do love you.”  She swallowed hard.

Jake was taken aback.  Had she just confessed her love for him?  Damn, this was incredible.  He looked into her hazel eyes.  “Gloria, I was going to hold off on telling you this because I didn’t want to scare you or move too fast but I think I’m falling in love with you,” He said looking into her eyes with love.  “I don’t want to be with anyone else.  I want you in my life.  You’re it for me baby and for the record, you could never mess this night up, ever.  I don’t expect you to do anything tonight baby.  I’ll take the lead okay?  All I want you to do is trust me and enjoy it.”

Jake kissed Gloria passionately again.  He wanted to make sure she was on board to move forward so he looked at her intensely, making sure she wanted him to proceed.  He began to kiss and caress her more passionately.  

Gloria couldn’t believe how incredibly good it felt.  Tingling and electric sensations ran all down her body.

Jake couldn’t believe how beautiful Gloria looked.  Her scent was intoxicating and her skin was oh so soft.   He wanted to explore every inch of her body.  He wanted to memorize it.  He looked up into her eyes and saw shyness, but he also saw nervousness and apprehension in her eyes. 

She was worried about what was going to happen. 

He wanted to treasure her.  He would show her how important she was to him and calm her fears.  Jake couldn’t get enough of her.  Slowly, he got up and undressed. 

Gloria closed her eyes for a split second then gasped.

He noticed her look away as he undressed.  Her cheeks were burning red.  “Is this the first time you’ve seen a man naked?” 

She nodded. 

He took in a sharp breath as he inched closer to her.  He could see how nervous she was.  She looked like a goddess, laying on his bead naked.  Her porcelain skin seemed to shine in the darkness.  Her petite frame make her look so delicate, so beautiful.  He couldn’t believe how innocent she was.  How did he get so lucky?  He would treasure her gift forever.

He crawled onto the bed and slowly climbed on top of her and began to kiss her again as he pressed his whole body against hers.  She felt so good.  Skin to skin was the best. 

He took his time kissing and caressing her for the next hour.  He loved the way Gloria moaned and squirmed beneath him.  He couldn’t wait anymore.  He was lying on top of her showering her with passionate kisses and caresses when he began to spread her thighs open with his knees. He gently positioned himself to enter her.  He was afraid of hurting her too much so he, so he went in very slowly.  

He kissed her some more and slowly inched his way into her channel breaking through her barrier. 

She cried out in pain.

He stopped moving and stayed still until she got use to him being inside her.  He kept kissing her and caressing her and whispering sweet words in her ears.

“It’s okay baby,” he said. “This is the only time it will hurt this bad.  The more we do it, the less it will hurt.  I’ll make sure you enjoy it baby,” he said as he continued to kiss her.   “I love you Gloria and want to marry you,” he blurted out.  “You feel wonderful baby.  I’m going to move back and forth inside you, okay baby,” he said as he looked into her eyes.  He wanted to reassure her. 

She had tears and was crying. 

“Are you okay baby?  I can stop if it’s too painful?”

Gloria shook her head. 

Jake hated to see her cry in pain, but it was inevitable.  He hated that she had to go through this pain.  Why did it have to be so painful for women, the first time, Jake thought?  He would give anything to take her pain away.

Gloria couldn’t believe Jake was inside her.  It hurt so badly.  She felt like she was breaking in half.  It felt like a knife had been thrust into her.  She had known it would hurt the first time but she never thought it would be this painful.  She was trying her best to be strong and to not let the pain show but it was impossible.  It just hurt too much. 

It had felt so good when he was kissing her.  Now she felt like her body was being torn apart.  She hoped it was true what Jake said and that it would never hurt this much again because honestly, she couldn’t bear it again.  She hadn’t intended to take it this far, to go all the way.  But when Jake started kissing her and touching her she lost all sense of control.  She just wanted more, more of Jake.

Jake was moving back and forth inside Gloria as she gripped his shoulders and tried not to scream out in pain.  Then his body shook, and he let out a loud groan.  

Gloria felt a warmness enter her body.  He kissed her a few more times, then laid down next to her and held her.

“I love you, Gloria.”  Jake held onto her tightly.

“I love you too, Jake.”  Gloria said exhausted and sleepy.

Slowly, the two fell into a tranquil sleep in each other’s arms.

Next Chapter: Chapter Six - The Aftermath