Joshua P. Johnson
Self reflection
Just looking for a little growth,
I’m not just a piece of shit.
Or blow my brains out soon enough and never discover it.
Going through the motions every single fucking day,
Celibate & sober, still feel disgusting in every way.
Lose your life, lose your friends, lose your job and lose your wife.
Fuck them all and fuck you too, you’ve lost in life and that’s the truth.
Just give up, stop fucking trying, look in the mirror and stop fucking crying.
Press a gun against your brain, pull the trigger to end your pain.
End your passion, end your hate, save those around you, this is your fate.
You’re nothing now, your life is blank.
Emotions bare, an empty tank.
An empty shell of what was once a man,
Or just,
A boy.