Goodness knows I’m broke beyond reason. I can’t tell you how many stories on this site I’ve seen and want to purchase immediately, but I can only do it every so often cause there are so many other things i have to worry about paying for first. I can’t pre-order swap like many others can and sometimes I feel like they take it personally, when really, I just don’t have the means to get their books at that time. 

My anxiety has also felt crippling at times during this campaign I’ve been running. To have been in the top 3 of the nerdist contest at one point and then dropped to 10th was crushing. To then go almost 20 days without a pre-order was even more so. I hit a moment where I was convinced I was going to take down my book and forget it, cause I’d never be able to compete with the other incredible authors on here.

Then I picked myself up, despite the angst, and kept fucking going. I got 26 pre-orders in a week. I launched my website. I’m nearly half way to Quill. Like @Ricardo Henriquez said, IT’S WORTH IT. Putting yourself out there to a world that might not even give a crap is BRAVE. You can do anything you believe you can do, you just have to keep faith that you have what it takes, cause the truth it, you do.