704 words (2 minute read)
by LK

Letter 8

Letter 8:
If I were an egg I'd be hard boiled by now.
I think people get to a point that their lives are dull and they're desperately trying to mirror all the things they think they should be . You know? To the point that they never have anything original to talk about.
This brilliant woman once said, "Great minds discuss ideas, average minds discuss events, small minds discuss people."
I'm OK with talking about filler details of day-to-day life. I'll talk about big ideas or dive into theoretical explanations. But most people just want to chatter like birds about good gossip and what's on TV.

Selfishly,
what I want is to be spontaneous. To totally be at peace and adventurously explore everything but to have the stability of you being the one consistent thing. The constant that I share all the ideas and experiences with. I think you want that from me too. It's just a little complicated.

I don't want anyone to take that away from me.
To take you away from me.
I know you're not "mine" or anything but in a way, you are.
"This" belongs to me and as soon as I start talking about you and me and us and this -
- I get this feeling in my stomach and my throat. 97% of the time it's the "small" minds that are asking questions.

I'd like to cut a lot of tongues out if it's really an eye for an eye and that's how you keep from being discussed.

Anyways, yeah you'll be a good dad. You're not really blue and you're not really a small mind. The world needs more people like that. You're meant to breed.

I wont go on a tangent about how ridiculous you smelling anything under water is. 
You're brain is curious to me.
There's a lot of things in that head of yours that I wont try to get out. 
Have you always not had fears? Even as a kid? not even a slight "eeewwww raisins!"?

This is strictly out of curiosity about you, what things do you look for in a partner? Like what traits appeal to you? What's flexible and what's a deal breaker? I have a feeling it'll almost be embarrassing how I'll only fit a fraction of the qualities. It's not about me though, I'm asking to know about you.

Correspondence 8:
That is funny. I just saved that quote on my computer.
I have been the center of many rumors and gossip.
Some true but most just hearsay that takes the snowball effect.

I believe we are as spontaneous as we can be with the means and schedules that we have. I try to be a constant for you. 
Yea you are very complicated. I do sometimes doubt that I can be enough for you. Then I think maybe you need a blue person who is oblivious to your needs and pains. Just a floater with no real ideas. A "gym rat" if you will.

I have shown you it's just people who cant stand to see someone doing well with someone and they are both happy. People here are miserable. You cutting tongues out will lead to trouble for you. Just let me take care of it please.

I explained that to you... It's the brain! I'm not really afraid of anything but I would always like a partner to help with the problem. "The dark isn't that bad if you have someone."

He wasn't afraid of raisins just disgusted he found them tucked away in his trail mix.

Hard worker
goal oriented
spontaneous
high sex drive
very attractive
tattoos
open minded
sense of humor
no smoking
that's about it. You are pretty great.

P.S.
Don't hang out with douchers who have diamond stud earrings. It will follow you home.


Next Chapter: Letter 9