It’s difficult to remember what happened next, I
remember my father’s grief stricken face as he
looked down at me. His tears fell like slow raindrops
on my forehead, while his screams came at me
muffled and inaudible. I remember being picked up,
and as I faced the sun I felt the heat and saw the
orange and red through my eyelids. As I peered
through the slits I opened in my eyes, I saw the most
beautiful sunset I can ever recall. The heat of the
day left a haze in the air that helped shade the sun’s
brilliance as it retired to its home for the evening.
There was a hot wind blowing through the valley,
causing the grass and tree tops to move as if they
were waves upon the sea. As we got further away, I
saw the crater the beast had left, and for a fraction
of a second, I heard my mother’s screams all over
again. Whether from the fever that was taking hold
of me, or my mind closing in on itself, I couldn’t keep
my stomach settled. I retched all over my father’s
back, but I think he was either too panicked or
hurried that he didn’t care. I began to shiver, and
the last thing I remember was my father yelling
“Michael stay with me, don’t do this to me Michael!
You’ll be fine, just stay with me!” After that, the
darkness took me and held me for a long while.
I dreamt during that time, strange dreams that
were jumbled together and difficult for a mind of my
age to make heads or tails of. I saw the eyes of the
beast peering at me in the dark, all the while I heard
the wails of the sick and dying. I saw flames dance
as a man would while onlookers slowly caught fire. I
felt my mother’s touch as fleeting as a gust of air,
there for a second but when I turned around, all I
had left was her smell. I heard voices yelling, and
shouts being raised as one. These things and more
I saw while I traveled through the darkened lands. It
terrified me to the point where I let my bladder go
and I still shudder when I think back to that time.
How long I was under I could not say nor was I told.
What I do know is that when I came to, I was laying
in an unfamiliar bed in an unfamiliar room. I peered
around, taking in my surroundings. The walls had a
flowery pattern to them with multiple colors mixed in,
light blues and yellows were paired with flowers
while oranges and pinks bloomed in alternating
patterns. They trailed up and down the walls making
intricate designs that pulled the eye here and there.
The furniture was an oak with a heavy reflective
gloss put on it, no matter where you moved your
head you would always see a reflection of light. A
white knitted pattern hung half way over the top
while candles sat on it to keep it from falling. The
windows had only curtains on them, but they were
white flowery things as well which did very little to
keep the light out.
I could see out the window that I was on the
second floor, and that trees surrounded the house I
was in as very little of the sky could be seen. I
moved my eyes down to the comforter that had been
draped over me. Another flowered pattern of pinks,
greens and whites made it look like a rose garden
was covering me. As I lay there, it became more hot
and stifling and the urge to use the bathroom welled
up inside of me like some angry animal. I slid the
comforter off and moved my legs to the side of the
bed. As I looked down, the raspberry red carpet
was full and thick. My feet touched the floor and my
legs began to shake. I placed my hand on the oak
nightstand, the same floral fabric covering was over
most of the top of the nightstand. It was slippery
and when my hand went out from under me, my
head almost crashed into the old bronze lamp they
had set beside the bed. My first steps were shaky. I
wasn’t for sure how long I had been asleep, but my
legs felt like they were rubber. Every step was
unsure, while I used the wall as a brace to help
steady my walk. As I approached the white door, I
saw the paint had been worn and had begun to chip
away in the corners. The doorknob jiggled in my
hand, and the door slowly creaked open.
Thinking back to then it was a very old house, the
floorboards groaned and squeaked with every step I
took. I finally made my way out into the hallway
where the scenery changed. The hallway itself was
of medium length, and at the end, there were blue
curtains that framed a window which overlooked the
yard. Even from where I was, you could see out into
the yard quite a bit. There was a barn, standing tall
with its deep red finish and white trim that outlined
the whole building. A willow tree was just outside of
the window and it’s leaves would cast shadows that
would dance around the walls and the floor. The
carpet was lush and muffled the sounds of my
footfalls as I searched for a room to relieve myself in.
After checking the other three rooms on my floor, I
finally found the bathroom at the end of the hall.
After that release of a large amount of bladder
tension, I flushed and went to wash my hands. I
paused when I saw myself in the mirror, it was
probably at that time that I first encountered the
“pull.” How can I explain the first time it happened?
Whimsical, elegant, flitting in and out of my senses
like a dancer performing on opening night. A better
example would be, when you hear the opening of a
musical piece the first few notes and it catches you
in its grasp and the need to hear more or it will leave
you empty and longing inside. The pull, at least
from my experience, is our innate ability to sense the
elements around us. The Greeks had an inkling of
it, the elements of life that is. They believed that
four basic elements comprised everything. Those
being fire, earth, wind and water. Sadly, they had
only a rudimentary understanding of what it was that
binds everything together. Those elements exist of
course but there is so much more, and to be the first
one to experience the pull at that time moved me
immensely.
I remember looking in the mirror and feeling the
pull for the first time and it brought tears of joy to my
eyes. I was confused, being as young as I was I
couldn’t for the life of me understand why I was
crying, looking back however I understand that I was
beginning to grasp the intricacies of magic. I
brushed away my tears, rubbed the back of my
sleeve against my nose and made my way down the
hall back toward the room I awoke in. Just past it
were stairs leading to the ground floor and I started
to make my way down. I reached about the fifth
step when I heard raised voices coming from
downstairs. One of them was shouting, which I
quickly identified as my father’s voice. “I know damn
well what I saw! Don’t tell me that...that I imagined
that thing that killed my wife! You were close, you
heard it. You probably saw the damn thing
yourself!” An older man’s voice responded, “That
may well be true, but I wouldn’t go tellin’ people that
I saw some giant bird snake die and come back to
life only to kill my wife in the process. Think about it
son, people all over will ask about yer sanity and
that may lead to questions of a diffren’ sort if you git
mah drift.” It was deep and had an echoing quality
to it, that somehow reached down inside of you and
shook around. An older woman spoke as well, “You
bess listen to him, folks already talkin round these
parts what with you bein an outsider an all. You
start talkin bout that creature and you’ll be hauled up
to county leavin’ your son behind faster than you can
blink.” She had a tenor voice that went throughout
the house but fell oddly flat and rarely cast an echo.
She continued, “Hush nah, no mo tahlk o’ this I
heard a rustlin’ upstairs I’m sure tha boy will be
coming down soon.” I was found out, I had no
choice but to go down the rest of the way. I entered
the kitchen, it looked to be from about 20 years ago.
Coverings on the walls depicted roosters and
baskets of eggs all along a backdrop of a mild tan
bordered by dark brown. Cupboards that were a
light blue added a splash of color to the room with
the plain white walls being backdrops for them. The
elderly were seated around the table while my father
was obviously pacing around shortly before. He
looked at me, and tears welled in his eyes.
“Michael? Oh god Michael you’re alright!” He ran
toward me, picked me up off of the third step and
spun me around the kitchen. “I was so worried
about you, you’ve been asleep for days! Are you
alright? That thing didn’t touch you did it?” He
examined every part of me while he asked that. He
lifted up my shirt, looked at my arms, the bottoms of
my feet, my legs, anything that might show him
where I was infected by the creature. The old lady
looked at me, “You chalrigh’ boy?” She was
covered up in a pink shawl, had gray hair with a
bluish tint with eyes the color of charcoal. She
stared at me over pink rimmed glasses waiting for an
answer. I looked at her, and shook my head. “No
ma’am, that thing didn’t touch me.” The older man
stared at me up and down to make sure I wasn’t
going to pass out at any minute. My father looked at
the two of them, “Thank you for your hospitality but I
think we’re going to have to leave.” He turned
around and opened the door, grabbed me by the
hand and started to lead me outside. “You
remembah wha we tol ya now, you keep tha all to
yahself o’ there be trouble.” The old woman said as
we left their place. As we walked toward the car, I
looked out along the horizon. The sky was crystal
blue with clouds as pure white as the cotton balls my
mother used to use. There was a spot on the
horizon that looked as if the sky had a line drawn
down a section of it, and that area was then dropped
as if it were an offset shelf. “Dad?” I asked, my
voice sounded scratchy to my ears. I pointed toward
the direction of the rip in the sky, my arm shaking
barely holding my hand up. “What’s that?” He
turned his head up, stared for a few moments.
“That’s where we had to leave your mom.” He
lowered his head for a moment, shuddered as he
held back a sob. “Son, I’m going to have to ask you
to do something very hard...do you think you can do
this for me?” I looked up into my father’s eyes, I
nodded unaware of what I was agreeing to at the
time but trusting my father as only a child can trust.
“Do you remember what happened?” He asked me.
I retold all I remembered, it was more difficult
recounting it for the first time and so soon after it had
happened. “Now son, I need you to promise me
something. I need you to promise...promise that you
will never talk about what happened there to
anyone. We will figure out what to say about your
mom, and why she isn’t coming home with us. Can
you do that for me?” I thought about it, while my dad
stared at me. “Please son, I really need you to do
this for me.” I looked to the sky, and back at him
“Okay, I promise.” He took my hand and we finished
walking toward the car. He buckled me into the
back seat, “If you’re hungry we’ll stop later when we
get into town okay?” He closed the door and walked
around the back. I heard him put a hand on the roof
of the car, sob “Bonnie, he’s alive, but you’re
gone...oh God what am I going to do?” He took
longer getting back into the car than he normally did.
When he did, he looked back at me, his eyes had a
red ring around them. “You okay bud?” I could see
the tears gathering in his eyes. “I’m fine dad.” I
reassured him as I put a smile on my face. He
nodded, “You’re strong, like your mom was.” He
turned around, and started the car. The engine
roared to life and then settled down into a low
rumble as he turned the car around and drove down
the little dirt road away from the farm. Trees lined up
like a fence on one side of us, the breeze blowing
that day made it look like they were waving goodbye
to us as we left that quiet little farmstead out in the
middle of nowhere.