FROM THE BLOG DIARY OF EMILY HUNTER

Entry #11: August 27, 2013

 I didn’t write that.  I didn’t go off my meds and black out again.  I seriously didn’t write that.  Someone is messing with me.  Someone has my password or something.  I changed it, so you can’t do it again asshole.  Seriously, who does that?  Who gets on a persons blog who obviousy has issues enough and is it and writes shit>;;;;;? I bet it"s those Sandy SHores assholes.  They laughed atr us all the time.  THey’d make videos of peple to show their friens. They thogt it was funny to watch Jack hit his head Sick fucks.  I can’t get away from you.  You have nothing beter to do that to fuck with me?  Of cousre not, youre loser who get a life you son of a bitch all you ever do is fuck with people whell i hope it comes back on thoye ten fold assholes donet ever come near me or my family or i swear il;l kill anotherone of you wyou assholes everythine i try to get my life in order theyre is someone therye woto take it all away again everytime and they keep beating over and over theis noise why wone she open her eyes she always closes them and te she can setill see me everywhere she goes and i go and shes there allways to follow me she can’t help it they need me if i cant ehlp them they all are in nowhere its not my fault i didnt hurt anyone i never want anyone to hurt i cant help it save us save us save us

Oh my god.  I just threw up.  I’m not deleting anything.  I remember starting this entry.  My head is killing me.  I don’t know what any of that means.  I’m calling Dr. Harper now.

I left a message.  What the hell?!  I haven’t missed my meds.  I don’t know what just happened.  I haven’t slept very well lately.  Lots of bad dreams.  I don’t know what

Dr. Harper is calling back.  Gotta go.  

Entry #12: September 6, 2013

 I got my dosage upped.  The truth is, the medication isn’t always 100% effective.  Like anything there are good days and bad days.  Sometimes there are flare ups, so to speak.  So to anyone reading, I’m okay.  Thank you for any concern you may have had if any.

It’s been a rough few weeks.  I’m sleeping less, although it’s a little better now.  The meds make me feel like shit, and now they’re heavier.  I have a hard time falling asleep, but once I do, I have a hard time waking up. And to be honest, I still feel a little keyed up and shaky.  It’s like being drowsy from no sleep but wired on caffeine at the same time. 

This is why I don’t have a boyfriend, or really many friends in general.  This shit is embarrassing enough to write out sometimes.  And while I accept who I am and the struggles I live with, asking someone else to do the same is a little much.  It sucks, to feel like you’ll always be alone.  Stuck in this little one bedroom one bathroom apartment.  No one to love you but yourself.  No boyfriend, no husband, no kids.  I love kids, but I couldn’t dream of passing this on to them.  Studies show schizophrenia to be prevalent in families, that it is passed on from parents much more frequently than can be explained by coincidence. Besides, no child deserves me as a mother.

Poor me, right?

Thing is, I’m not wrong.  I’ve accepted it.  I’ve moved past it.

It’s not easy though.  It feels like other people have this thing, and I have to watch.  I’ve never really had many friends.  I got pulled out of school after third grade.  That’s a fun story.  When I was in second grade, the week before summer vacation, I had a seizure in the middle of an oral report about my favorite book ("Encyclopedia Brown and the Case of the Mysterious Handprints." Seriously, I remember that.)  In front of the whole class, I fell over, breaking Julie Dent’s diorama of some book about a vampire rabbit, and hit the ground shaking.  According to the teacher I was babbling some shit about god knows what, and when I woke up, I had wet my pants. 

They took me to the hospital, checked me out, and said I was fine.  They couldn’t explain it.  And when I got back to school, my name had been changed to Emily Pisser. 

So, summer vacation started right after that, and then it was over in what seemed like a blink of an eye.  I told my mom I didn’t want to go back to school, because the kids would make fun of me.  She said they’d all have forgotten it by this point.

Kids have long memories.

Day one it was "Hello Pisser!"  Someone would spill something on themselves and say "Hey look, I’m Emily!"  Kids would fall down and shake around by me, and then laugh.  I went through it for all of third grade before my mom let me be home schooled.

She wasn’t happy.  She raised hell with the principal, the school board, the PTA, everyone.  Mom had my back. 

So really, I haven’t had a lot of friends.  I’ve been alone most of my life.  I’m mostly okay with it. 

Sometimes though... It would be nice to hug someone, ya know?

-Em

Entry #13: September 9, 2013

 This isn’t working.  This is a waste of time.  All of it.  This blog, the meds, therapy all of it.  I feel like I’m just postponing the inevitable.  This is going to kill me.  

The Banalfolk is a blanket term for the non-magical remnants of mankind that dwell within the realm of Tír na nÓg. There are many settlements from the massive city of Sirothell with its gargantuan port, the IronWood Clans in the Vale, the Senarran Beast Riders of the Great Expanse, the farming communities of Freehold, Waver’s Harbor, the list of human populated settlements goes on. 

They are the most populous race within the realm of Tír na nÓg. Due to their inability to wield the gifts of the Goddess, their prosperity depends solely on their mastery of technological advancements. Without wings, they build airships. Without stone songs, they use picks and axes to mine metal. The seat of their power resides in Sirothell.

Sirothell, City of Broken Bones, is the seat of House Basilisk, a puppet branch of the Fomorian King in Formene. As the remnant of the capital city of the Old Empire before the first rebellion of man, it still remains important to the human inhabitants of the sprawling slums. Though many other races do business in Sirothell, due to its location and extensive ports, the city is the only sizable human settlement left standing after the third rebellion of man.

The city is comprised of Viscount’s Manor at the center which is surrounded by a great many slums including Beggar’s Run and Pauper’s Alley.

Witherfist is now in the Geek & Sundry contest top 10. This is a huge milestone, as it’s the first time since the beginning of the contest back in August that the book has broken into the top 10.  In a contest with over 380 entrants, it’s a real honour to be up there and in the company of so many other brilliant authors and their books.

How did this happen? Over this past weekend, Inkshares syndicates - groups of like-minded readers who band together to support books - began choosing their monthly picks. Witherfist was fortunate enough to be nominated and chosen by the members of the ’Break the Bechdel’ syndicate, whose support added a whopping 32 new preorders to the preorder total. A massive thank you goes to Tahani Nelson, author of The Last Faoii, for putting Witherfist forward and for all of the syndicate members who voted to make this possible.

What does that mean?  If you visit the contest page, you’ll  now see the Witherfist cover listed along with the rest of the top 10 entries. This will give the book extra visibility to contest visitors and, should it be fortunate enough to stay in the top 10, this ranking will remain frozen in place once the contest ends on November 1st.

Does this mean Witherfist will be published?  It certainly helps towards that goal! We are now 50% of the way to the 250 copies needed for publication and being in the top 10 puts Witherfist one step closer to the top 3 (who are all guaranteed a full publishing deal). Although the Geek & Sundry contest ends at the beginning of next month, Witherfist has until December 31st to reach the big 250.

We’re now halfway there. 

We can do this.

~ Jenny

Hello Readers, Followers, and Lurkers!

Quick update today: Christopher Lee (author of The Lore of the Aos Sí) made a book trailer for Fae Child! It is complete, and here it is (you can also view it on the Fae Child main page):

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4MDVWv88J4w

I just love it. Thank you again, Christopher! As a reminder, he is running a promotion where if you preorder his book and review/recommend it he will make you a book trailer. If you’re in need of some fancy multimedia to help promote your book you should jump on it!

~ Jane-Holly

Guess what?

As of right now, we have officially passed the point we were at two months ago when we lost all the false pre-orders. Tantalus Depths’s pre-order count is now 674: the highest it’s ever been.
We are officially exploring unexplored territory now, which, at the heart of things, is what this book is all about.
I’ve taken off the next three days from work. I’m pushing every single responsibility in my life out of the way and focusing entirely on finding new pre-orders. I will eat, sleep, and breathe this campaign.
To get 76 orders in four days is 19 a day. It’s almost impossible. Almost. I’m not a fan of the concept of impossibility. I aim to conquer it.

Meanwhile, enjoy this gallery of past updates: this time focusing on the vehicles and equipment used by the crew on Tantalus 13. Click any picture to be taken to the original update where it was featured.

 

Oh, yeah, Faoii. One more thing:

We have 36 days to get 36 pre-orders. One a day from here until the end. People know our banner-- they know our fight. We just need to convince them that they are worthy of picking up a blade and joining it. That we need them. Spread the word, soldier. One a day. We can do that.

Also, if you haven’t been following the forums, here’s what Faoli-Joey had to say about our army this week:

"Though still at 6th place on the site, The Last Faoii by Tahani Nelson is actually tied with A Light in the Void for 5th place! A strong, ferocious campaign has helped Ms. Nelson make her way into the Top 5 and she’s not planning on stopping any time soon. The Epic Fantasy Syndicate has backed The Last Faoii and that support has brought Ms. Nelson under 50 preorders away from reaching quill! She’s also raffling off a chance to name one of the many characters in her book as well as early beta reading privileges, so now is definitely the time to join the fight! As I’ve said before, this is probably one of, if not *the* funnest campaign going on in the entire contest and it’s definitely worth the time to be a part of it. Go check out Ms. Nelson’s page as well as the book page for The Last Faoii for more information!"

Thanks you, Faoii-Joey, for your words of support. I’m glad you’re having so much fun with this war-- I don’t like being the only one delighting in the fight!!

Faoii-Tahani out.

We’re catching up...

We’re almost down to double-digits!

Since I’m trying to focus as many of my efforts on hunting down new supporters one by one as possible, and since I’ve largely run out of story-based content I can share without spoiling things I want to hold off on, there will be no new story or lore-based updates this week. However, since this campaign has been going for something like seven or eight months now, it occurs to me that newer readers may have missed earlier updates. So this week I’m compiling archives of previous updates for your convenient browsing. Just click each picture and you’ll be taken directly to the original update for that item.

Today’s archive: crew dossiers. Read up on Exotech’s files for each member of The Diamelen’s crew, and their enigmatic robotic host, SCARAB.

 

As always, please remember to keep pushing for more support! We still need more than a hundred orders in the next six days, but I genuinely believe we can make it.