I
Little Warrior Girl
I know that you are painfully lonely
I thought this place would give you purpose
You could have grown immensely,
like a hatched chick,
and I should have mothered you
Once, you had clear vision like a sunny day,
though you tended to act impulsively,
pushing everyone away
I guess you were just that way.
I wonder if I over-reacted.
If I did something wrong.
Maybe when I told you to stop it,
you thought I was threatening you
I should have known better
to threaten your life and your dreams
was to commit murder
to put up a bar
was to cage the mighty falcon
But all I wanted best,
truly so,
was for you to be free
No, here you could be free to live
however you wished
But how could I even take you here?
A glimpse into primal life,
an echo of survival
There were remnants of solitude and purpose,
but you disappeared and took all that with you,
setting it aside in a bowl that traversed the ocean
Through it all, I blamed myself
The vastness of time.
I felt us drifting away
like two balloons set free
Nothing ever materialized in my life.
The cold was ever-present.
I couldn’t even escape it when I moved away.
I tried to make up for my mistakes somehow;
instead, I just trapped myself in the past.
In those broken words and painful memories
that could never be fixed.
I thought you would have gone on to live a great life
to embrace your inner warrior
to find the place and time
that best mirrored your expression
of the myriad of worlds
I believed you of all people would find it
But you faded away to time,
your dreams turning to sand beside you
Oh, little warrior girl
did you ever keep up the fight?